I haven't left my house with the sole intent of shooting pictures in over two months and I feel guilty.
A photographer named Zack Arias, made a video for ScottKelby.com titled "Transform". Essentially the short video is about the dips in creativity and drive as a photographer and artist in general. We all go through some point or another where we analyze our peers and convince ourselves we're inadequate hacks, or hate what we do, and see how far we have to go.
"why on god's great green earth do we have this insatiable desire to compare ourselves with others?"
It's in these winter months, when sheltered inside away from the weather where I stop to look back on what I had or had not accomplished, and relate that to my peers in the last year. I look back and think what was I doing? why didn't I do this? Where did the time go?
It seems like all i could remember was work, school, and relationships.
How am I a different photographer this last year, than I was year before that?
This is beyond equipment, it's not that one lens, it's not that one camera, it took time to figure out that it's not the tool, "The camera doesn't have a Richard Avedon button on it, does it?" If anything, the tools can make it worse. because instead of naturally feeding that void with something healthy, you shove filler into it, and you try to live off the filler, but at the end of the day your exhausted because your not feeding your creativity what it needs.
So then we get stuck....what does it need?
"Be patient, don't rush, chill out, you are on your way."