Hey guys its been a while.
For what i'm about to say i won't blame anyone for not ever wanting to talk to me again since i deserve it.
I just need to get it out.
This is very personal but i've been so close with all of you guys that I feel comfortable sharing my life with you all.
For the people that don't know me...I've been going back and forth with my ex by her hurting me back and forth plus i've ended up going out with other women and have always asked for advice.
Recently i did goto dubai and got with another girl who to me was the dream girl i've always wanted.
There was nothing wrong with her and she's the best girl i've ever got to know my whole life.
But it was a long distance relationship and since i'm an A**hol* and selfish my se**ual needs came in and it was getting hard to be with her... and also that i totally wasnt over my first ex who was my first gf ever...infact my only gf before the current one.
well to sum things up...i pushed the current one away and ended up getting back with my ex an dsleepin with her... yes..HOW THE F*** i did that..idk...i guess i jumped on impulses and didnt use my intelects.
My ex was also in love with another guty so i pushed her away and helped her be with this other guy and they got back...sinc eit did make her happy and thats all i wanted from my ex whether shes with or without me.
Then i broke it to the current girl and pretty much shattered her heart and life.
I went against my beliefs...culture...values and my self by doing what i did and no wi broke apart a girls heart who never did anything wrong.
I did the exact same thing my ex kept doing to me over and over....
ANd the current one i broke up with she said thanks for ruining my life and i hope you rproud of it and enjoy your life with yhour ex. ITS OVER!
I don't believe i need advice cos i know i'm F***D up now.
I guess i need time to myself and be alone for a while to figure out who i am again and clean myself out....create myself again since im so effin lost right now.
I just lost 2 women that i loved or maybe still do and may realize this too late.
Cos now the current ones hearts broken and she will prob never speak to me and my ex is back with the other guy cos i helped her out and i knew it will be easier for them to be toegether for futures sake.
I keep tryin to make ppl happy and maybe by being alone i'll figure out what i really want that will make me happy.
I hope i havn't wasted any of your guy's time and i would love support but if you've lost respect for me i will understand cos its something i deserve.
Thanks for reading.
-Qasim. H
For what i'm about to say i won't blame anyone for not ever wanting to talk to me again since i deserve it.
I just need to get it out.
This is very personal but i've been so close with all of you guys that I feel comfortable sharing my life with you all.
For the people that don't know me...I've been going back and forth with my ex by her hurting me back and forth plus i've ended up going out with other women and have always asked for advice.
Recently i did goto dubai and got with another girl who to me was the dream girl i've always wanted.
There was nothing wrong with her and she's the best girl i've ever got to know my whole life.
But it was a long distance relationship and since i'm an A**hol* and selfish my se**ual needs came in and it was getting hard to be with her... and also that i totally wasnt over my first ex who was my first gf ever...infact my only gf before the current one.
well to sum things up...i pushed the current one away and ended up getting back with my ex an dsleepin with her... yes..HOW THE F*** i did that..idk...i guess i jumped on impulses and didnt use my intelects.
My ex was also in love with another guty so i pushed her away and helped her be with this other guy and they got back...sinc eit did make her happy and thats all i wanted from my ex whether shes with or without me.
Then i broke it to the current girl and pretty much shattered her heart and life.
I went against my beliefs...culture...values and my self by doing what i did and no wi broke apart a girls heart who never did anything wrong.
I did the exact same thing my ex kept doing to me over and over....
ANd the current one i broke up with she said thanks for ruining my life and i hope you rproud of it and enjoy your life with yhour ex. ITS OVER!
I don't believe i need advice cos i know i'm F***D up now.
I guess i need time to myself and be alone for a while to figure out who i am again and clean myself out....create myself again since im so effin lost right now.
I just lost 2 women that i loved or maybe still do and may realize this too late.
Cos now the current ones hearts broken and she will prob never speak to me and my ex is back with the other guy cos i helped her out and i knew it will be easier for them to be toegether for futures sake.
I keep tryin to make ppl happy and maybe by being alone i'll figure out what i really want that will make me happy.
I hope i havn't wasted any of your guy's time and i would love support but if you've lost respect for me i will understand cos its something i deserve.
Thanks for reading.
-Qasim. H