Yes I do know what's going to prevent me from the job I want and that's the fact that I have an arrest. And what is therapy going to do anyways?Do you know what might prevent you in the future if you try to get what ever job? Probably don't know.
This is a very serious problem and it is your mental health. You should deal with this very carefully before it is too late.
If you have time, go and talk to a psychiatrist first. This is really one very serious problem you have.
Excuse me if I said very directly, but this problem you have. Is this a cause or consequence and whether someone can at all help you, I don't know.
But it will be noticed by everyone who knows even a little bit about of a person's psyche and behavior.
Deal with it, this is a very serious problem and it does not disappear by itself, rather it will get worse and increases every day. May be it's a depression.
PS, So. If someone thinks that this post is not good here, maybe the administrator or moderator will delete it, but my opinion is serious and may be helpful to many persons.