One day I hope to be able to properly deal with any mental swings without any assistance, but until then I'll definitely keep appreciating the helping hand cannabis lends me
At the moment if things get bad I've noticed that I actively resist any positive thoughts, almost like I'm enjoying feeling empty/terrible and the monotony of the never-ending mental loop of 'nothings ever going to get better'.
Roll up a quick spliff and take a walk down to the nature reserve, and without even trying my mind will suddenly be distracted and focusing on how nice the day looks, or how much detail is in even just the ground. Sometimes it's like experiencing "being outside" for the first time ever, like you'd never seen any of it before. To look around and think "I am *glad* that I can see this" and mean it with your whole heart is the most refreshing feeling after feeling nothing for so long.
Also just saw some of the pics in TX, hot damn lol. 110f+ weather, hurricanes, floods, earthquakes, mexicans, why would anyone keep living there?!