That is going to kill ya eventually
I'm older than you and agree with Joe C.
Lots of times addicts use rationalizing to justify their cumpulsive behavior.
Smoke as much herb and do as many psychs as you want, you will not die.
Alcoholics usually die from drinking alcohol.
I don't think socializing with the human amoebas in civilization is worth the mental and physical cost of alcohol abuse.
Society is abnormal. Only a mentally ill person can contort their natural human morals and conscience to accept the reality of modern life as normal.
The fact that you lose interest, and can't relate to talk of the latest sports thing or politics opinion from a person who has never been in charge of even a lemonade stand, no wonder they drove you to drinking.
You need to stop though. Only you can change inside but look at our way of life. Over 50% of drug attests are for pot in USA, yet it's legal in many states. Alcohol is legal all 50 states but it's illegal to drink and drive, yet bars are built with a parking lot.
Just because you are an alcoholic, in many ways, it's still a trap made by the same system that brings us the drug war, to perpetuate the prison industry, stifle democratic dessent, on and on.
Many people can drink some alcohol and be fine, and good for them they should be free to.
I am not one of them so I prohibit myself from ever drinking any alcohol again. But I can't legally make the choice to engest mdma or any of the many plants, drugs, and medicines big brother says I'm not allowed.
I can have percocet, fentanyl, xanax, all that is fine. My drugs, not your drugs. My freedom, not your freedom.